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Thursday, June 29, 2006
Men really are from MARS...
A wife's diary:
Sunday night - he's been acting so weird.
we had made plans to meet-up for coffee. i had been shopping with friends all day long and was late getting to the cafe; that's wha ti thought he was upset about, but he made no comment.
conversation wasn't flowing so i suggested that we go somewhere quiet so we could talk; he agreed but he was still quiet and asent. i asked him what was wrong; he said, "Nothing". i asked him if it was my fault that he was upset. he said it had nothing to do with me and not to worry.
on the way home i told him that i loved him - he simply smiled and kept driving! why didn't he say , "I love you, too"?! when we got home i felt as if i had lost him, as if he wanted nothing to do with me any more. he just sat there and watched TV; he seemed so distant.
finally, i decided to go to bed. about 10 mins later he came to bed. i decided that i could not take it anymore, so i decided to confront him with the situation... but he had fallen asleep. i started crying and cried untill i too fell asleep. i don't know what to do. i'm almost sure that his thoughts are with someone else
my life is a disaster
Husband's diary : Today, England lost the match. DAMN IT!
sMurFy at ... [ 11:10 PM ]
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
hilarious b'day celebration
last night my sis came to my room and complain to me about an interesting event. actually is one of her friends b'day (stevie) and they plan to go marriot hotel to buy him a meal
she dash into my room n stare at me (with a disappointed look)
kutu kecil : i wanna complain about yr brother ron (ron is my younger brother)
ah kok : why lei, he offend u ar or call to disturb you?
kutu kecil : ok, i tell u now
kutu kecil : just now we all go marriot hotel for dinner (buffet dinner) cos is stevie b'day, so we tot of buying him a meal lar.
ah kok : oh, didn't ask me along
kutu kecil : u busy mah, ulu place, scare u difficult to come out o..
kutu kecil : we plan to buy him dinner, and YP, meepok also okay, and i tot ron working hard, why not i ask him along to have a good meal
ah kok : oh, ok, so how's the meal, issit good?
kutu kecil : so so lar but i bleed, bleed big time
kutu kecil : that damn meal cost us SGD360 for 5 persons lei
ah kok : a bit ex lei, meaning 40+++ per person lar, right?
kutu kecil : yep but u know something? yr brother, haiz... buffet dinner shall eat instead of drink more, right? he ordered 3 glass of fruit juice along the meal. 1 glass of fruit juice cost around 11 bucks, u see lar, 3 glass already 33 bucks
ah kok : aiyoo, ask for plain water mah, not worth to drink such an expensive juice there
kutu kecil : tt's why lar, stevie still disturb me and ask me "Eh.. fruit juice free flow one issit?"
kutu kecil : i already keep quiet n slowly cutting my steak, scare later if he keep asking the same question again, i'll cut him into pieces
ah kok : haha.. haha... why like that, he know got ppl buy him dinner, then he just whack anything he can think off? he never look at the menu?
kutu kecil : i got nothing to say, i dun wanna say anything tonight
ah kok : "still laughing profusely till tears coming out"
kutu kecil : then u know what? when come to payment, yr brother n that stupid meepok act blur, look here n look there
kutu kecil : so i purposely tease them n say "Eh... i didn't carry enough cash, so everyone gimme cash lar". wah, u know what meepok say?
kutu kecil : she say i dun have lar, only 20 bucks
YP : sacarstic remarks "wah, buy ppl dinner at marriot u bring only 20 bucks har"
kutu kecil : i very disappointed, especially yr brother. he think ppl earn more than him must pay for his meal, must have the tendency and responsibility to take care of him because i'm his sister lor
ah kok : so at the end, who pay the 360 bucks?
kutu kecil : stevie wanna pay but his b'day mah, at the end i charge lor. i wanna go sleep lar, dun talk to me already, i very angry
ah kok : ha ha ha ha ha
my this only sister r quite capable and generous, but she can't stand those who always try to take advantages from her because she despise those ppl
sMurFy at ... [ 11:35 AM ]
tEh-sI feVer
world cup fever is on but currently i'm having teh-si fever now
last night kena back stab hard by my sister (ah tear), she conned me and bully me hard
this morning worse, she dash to my place and vandalize my table-top calendar, completely fill-up with her masterpiece
sMurFy at ... [ 11:24 AM ]
Sunday, June 25, 2006
fAiRy eNcOUnTeRS
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High above the sky
In a cloudy night
No moon
No stars
The night seems soooo long, cold and dark
Darkness are just everywhere
Suddenly I saw a dim twinkling light
It seems so high above
But its dim light did lighten up a lonely soul
A lonely me
From far below
In a vast empty desert
** Hope is all around **
Within the star, lives a fairy
A beautiful fairy with a lovin' personality
Mischievous, fun loving but understanding, caring and sweet
I am liken to a wounded animal
Suddenly my life fills with her love, her blessing and her care
The fairy taken good care of me, nursing my injuries & my wound
The feelings are just so good, so warmth and so comfortable
I wish this lovely moment to be forever, to be stagnant
To be exclude from time, to be there forever
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But the cruelty of life and reality did set in at the wrong time, wrong place
Life harsh, reality sucks
I am suddenly awaken from my beautiful dream
Oh my goodness, what is happening?
Am I dreaming?
Argh… I do not want to wake-up
I wish to be fallen asleep again
Please.....
I stay awake lifeless & motionless in my bed
I still cannot accept this is just a dream
A lovely dream
A dreams that are so real and lively to me
Such a wonderful dream
When will it happen again?
When?
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sMurFy at ... [ 9:06 PM ]
Monday, June 19, 2006
weEkEnD @ KuAla lUmPur
huh.. at last can spend my good weekend at KL, at last, at last
since wednesday till friday, just work, work n work at the old/new office and CWT warehouse, so tiring, exhausted and messy
the person-in-charge just like to stick to the boss, that stupid cheong-hei (ch), talking is cheap but action.. none!
nemo is working hard to help up at office, even go back office to oversee stuffs and dun even got time to come out on weekend. the boss go back to s'pore on friday, the ch dun care too.. .walau, office relocation can just go ahead like this, terrible man
lucky my weekend is well spend, running around at petaling street, klcc, sunway, etc... and thanks to ah beach n ah si to wake-up early morning and fetch me around.
that ah beach gd in complaining lar, always say VIP, no choice, very demanding, etc.. ah si stay at rawang, hence i also need to thanks her very much to come all the way. we walk around KL area, makan good food and even watch movie "CARS", indeed very interesting
on weekend, everyone is busy, hence left ah si accompanying me, and wake me up early morning on sunday. u know lar, she say left me at hotel rot, why not follow her to the haleelujah a while?
what to do, the hotel breakfast is sucks, so many months.. still the same - porridge, nasi lemak n beehoon goreng, argh... so attend church service on sunday morning a while and mingle around with some of her friends, then we proceed to the HK style "char chan teng" for breakfast but, both also skinny, so can't eat much
then we tour petaling street, mid valley, etc... via lrt, train, shopping, eating, etc... and teasing each other to get some clothings, end-up we get ourselves some tee-shirts, etc...
and ah si remind me about my trip to KL, we're exactly like the couples (robert langdon n sophie neveu) from the movie Da Vinci Code
before our bali trip, her notes password lock, can't remember her password.. hence i crack her password n reset it, with a long range of password for recovery, there comes the code cracking joke, i'm his langdon, she's my sophie
and the coincidently - i stay at hotel, fetch n monitored by police commander bezu fache (andelu), here comes the ah si (sophie), come to my rescue by fetching me n take care of me, they're running around for hints n codes while we're looking for interesting places and hunt for good food
then she tease me that i'm much older than her, as langdon is also much older than sophie, she's driving while i'm not, she know the places here much better than me but i know lots of stuff that she don't know, etc... .
always say she's low maintenance (but actually ???) but i enjoy her company, she always look blur2 n sotong2 to me, like that difficult to survive in KL lar
the only think i like her - she sincerely told me i look 26/27 instead of 30s while she look much mature than 25, hence we can click well
oh.. monday coming again, time to work again
sianz, sianz, sianz
sMurFy at ... [ 12:22 AM ]
Sunday, June 18, 2006
KL network migration project
indeed rush project n tiring weeks
back from Bali last Sunday near midnight, then clearing stuffs in office on Mon to Tue, rush to KL on Wed morning, straight to our warehouse, attending network relocation project and another two more waiting.
my infrastructure sys admin is leaving, still searching for ppls... now got some hiccups at my m'sia office, and my stupid sister company is doing migration also on 20th june.
my own firewall migration at 21st june, and i only finish my kl relocation at 20.. so? fly back on 20th and straight to the sister company migration project lor
suddenly everything comes together, walau.. win lor like that
as for m'sia relocation project, damn lucky i'm there earlier to solve my company warehouse connection problem, then i got time attending to KL office relocation cos my original schedule is reach only at 18th night, then straight to KL office for relocation.. .somehow there's some mis-communication between them on server equipments and also my cabling contractors, wow.. stress man.
lucky a temp solution is being proposed and as for the 'sou-wei', lemme brief them and i'll attend to them after i back n settle my s'pore project first lar, tiring lei
this is my 2nd time to m'sia office, 1st time v busy and short, hence really no time to look around the hotel i'm staying - royale bintang, mutiara damansara
so i assume - ok lar, go there work only, the hotel is near many dining place, etc.. convenient mah, so i ask my kl office colleague to book for me lor, ah chris
u know lar, world cup season lei, 4 yrs once
so the 1st day reach KL n settle stuff, quickly go back hotel, rushing for my tv remote and flip furiously all the channels, no live soccer, damn!
i call the reception n they say, oh.. no lar, u try tv1, tv2 n ntv7 lar.. oh my god, whata fxxx man, u put that damn astroguide there with the title 2006 fifa world cup, all 64 matches live exclusively on Astro but the hotel never subscribe!
walau.. i super angry... then tot of getting a gd bath, n guess what, no bathtub also...
haiz.. i so angry and call ah chris to complain
i just tell her next time no more stupid royale bintang, damn it, stupid hotel, sucks, service also no good, the hot water is inconsistent too
imagine sometimes hot, sometimes cold.. argh...
oh.. something to add also at the royale bintang hotel
no control panel and a light bulb burst too
imagine u got around 8 lighting points around the room.. so when you gonna sleep, you need to walk around the entire hotel room n switch off all the light one by one.. alamak, headache man
sMurFy at ... [ 1:12 AM ]
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
bAli trip
just back from my bali trip but it is indeed tiring when u reach home around 12 midnight and need to wake-up early tomorz morning - cos it is a Monday!
an interesting place initially but after being bombed twice, price of everything almost shed half and not as lively as what previously mentioned before.
this island's survival is purely depends on tourism, imagine what will happen when no one is visiting them?
i'll upload some photo soon, please be patient n bear with me ya... and i'll off to KL for some network infrastructure migration and setup, tiring boy.
bAlI wRiTe-uP/suMMarY
4D3N - Aston Bali Hotel (1/2 hrs to Kuta, Bali)
i strongly suggest hard rock hotel, because it located at Kuta, Bali - a lively city with everything inclusive disco, pub, etc... for the young thingy only
old ppl like to see monkey, volcano, paddy terrace field, etc...
after the bomb, everything go down here and the pricing drop almost 50% compare to last few yrs back when u go Bali for 4D3N easily cost you SGD1.2k
not as lively as before, shall i say - disappointed because i expect Bali to be a lively and interesting place, but it just a so-so place when i'm there
water sports are not cheap either, imagine a 20 mins of jetski cost ard USD20 and banana boat cost u ard SGD20 per person?
actually not much stuff to buy beside t-shirt and a huge departmental store here "Matahari", others are all handicraft and imagine my boss get a wind chime and gave away, say very troublesome to bring back?
but fortunately this is a company trip, because i got a group of playful and cheerful young colleagues, we're indeed happy n joyful together
sMurFy at ... [ 12:11 AM ]
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
dId i mARry thE riGhT pErSOn?
EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies.
Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience.
You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love... Because it's happening TO YOU.
People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet." Think about the imagery of that expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.
Falling is love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience.
But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.
The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.
At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry the right person?" And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages breakdown. People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.
Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, church, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.
But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it.
I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could.
And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):
THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.
SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't "find" LASTING love. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the expression "the labor of love." Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.
Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.
Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable... you can "make" love.
Love in marriage is indeed a "decision"... Not just a feeling.
sMurFy at ... [ 9:25 AM ]
Monday, June 05, 2006
pRobLemAtIc dEpaRTmEnTs
why problematics lei?
my current company lor, the "ah tuor ji ke" company... an european firm, mnc with gd benefits, employee welfares, good balance between work and social life, good remunerations, etc... just too bad, all the above - only applied in European Contingent
& not chinese or asian ppl lor
SEA operation, HQ in Singapura, so macam mana?
sama lar, orang cina manage punya, semua kedekut sampai MATI!
i join this firm less than a year but my team are sucks, no harmonization, no team spirit, no team work, selfish, take credits, got head no tails, not willing to help, passive, and keep everything to themselves.. just like a bunch of sxxx.
boss got problem with his subordinate, subordinate not willing to help each other, not willing to share, backstab their own boss, bypassing, etc...
huh.. u name it, they have that quality, argh...
i've done my best to build team spirit among my small pathetic team, try to inject some team work, sharing and after some hard work, at last there's some results.
somehow before i can build properly, one of my staff kena axe & change her status to contract staff.. cos her skill sets are not relevant anymore due to the change of our company wide ERP system.
i need to tackle this problem myself carefully, somehow she still my staff and i need to look after her, my responsibilities. after this wave, another coming....
this one more into ethical issues... my direct superior telling me that 1 of my staff is accessing his HR emails. he knows because he need to replace a management staff in another company but somehow this fella know about it and confronted my boss.
my boss just jumping up n down and find out that probably 1 of my staff is accessing his HR mailbox and forwarded this information to him.
so?
what is happening?
my boss confronted my staff, which my staff flatly denied.
probably she might access those mailboxes when she doing emails forwarding, etc... and what my role here?
SANDWICH lor
my boss tell me that he already consulted the management and will issue her a warning letter
my staff keep asking me whether i believe in her or not?
what can i do beside doing some forensic work with my mail server administrator? the prove is there, she's indeed accessing the HR mailboxes but yes, i do agree that sometimes when IT staffs like us performing upgrading on mail server and company-wide backup, we'll be schedule a time to perform that task and of course it'll accessing everything in the server to do a proper backup, right?
but who's right or who's wrong, who knows?
my boss insists that only she's accessing it, the rift is there.. the scar is there, the trust no longer exists
and what my staff doing?
keep bugging me daily for a period of time, asking me what my boss will do to her. each time i go into my boss room, she become wary and asking me, what is happening, what we discuss... and quite irritating. she's more like my superior instead
and always lamented to me that she no longer have prospect and future here... one day she told me she dream that i told her she no longer needed in axxxxxx and give her a pink slip. the next day, she lamented to me again that she dun feel having any future here, cos no promotion...
promotion?
to senior or to what?
my boss say she's childish, like to take credit, always bypassing her superior and always try to show that she's indispensable, which some of it.. i agree lar
she make my boss jump upside down before i join this company and after i join, she also trying to influence me and show me that she's still a power to be reckon with
but this young jedi is just too naive and impulsive
ok.. so last week she told me she found a job, still thinking
all along, i know she's looking for job
ok.. after a talk and over the weekend, she told me she no longer have the heart to wait for the SAP because her only intention staying is to wait for SAP
i've a small talk with my SAP manager, he laugh and tell me... no wonder she ask me some funny2 questions on SAP
ok, so after having a small talk with my boss, my boss decided that it is good to both parties that she left and look for better prospect outside as my boss nowadays no longer involve her in any of the minor local projects... which stretch me off and make my life busy unnecessary
haiz.. u say lar, life good or not as a departmental head?
sMurFy at ... [ 9:54 PM ]
Ah Kok aka PicaKok aka Pica aka ah mun tou
A small pathetic overwork & underpaid IT fella in Axxxxxx
Currently XX yr old in this world (unable to reveal, confidential lar)
Plays badminton & sharpen my photography skills over the weekend...
Loves $$$
Loves bread and instant noodles...but BREAD is the best, pure & YUMMY
Hates idiots
Hates hypocrites